Writing/The Moment

<poem> Suicide silent as a thunderstorm, It crashed down upon the boy. The wind carried his tears, And the moon faded into the night. "Thud!"—the door shut.

The boy wept and felt it. It? whispered the wind. "It" - which few desire. The moment when the hills turn blue and the sky green? asked the wind. "Nay" - few fear it. The moment when the hills are green and the sky blue? asked the wind. "Nay" - few have never dreamt of. The moment of blood soothing through the rugged skin, and that soothe in peace? asked the wind. "Nay" - few dream of it often. The moment when we are croesus, and it shines like the sun? asked the wind. "Nay" - few do not want it. The moment when the sun's golden beam vanishes, and cloud of darkness takes its place? asked the wind.

"Nay" - it is the moment when all but life is lost—when a mother’s warmth, a father’s love, and even God’s grace fade, leaving only memories that fail to quench the heart’s thirst for love and care. When the mind is seized by 'zrael and tightened by a noose.

The boy closed the windows, Shutting out the wind. He tightened the knot and stepped forward. "Sorry," he gasped </poem>

Stanza 1

“Suicide silent as a thunderstorm,

It crashed down upon the boy.

The wind carried his tears,

And the moon faded into the night.

‘Thud!’ — the door shut.”

The first line is an oxymoron, symbolizing the absurdity (the literal one) of suicide. The wind and moon are passive observers, natural, impersonal forces that witness but don’t intervene. The final “thud” is literal, the door closing but also symbolic. It marks a transition: the world is now sealed off. The boy is alone with his decision.

Stanza 2

“The boy wept and felt it.

It? whispered the wind.

‘It’ – which few desire.

The moment when the hills turn blue and the sky green? asked the wind.

‘Nay’ – few fear it.”

Here, “it” is deliberately vague. The wind becomes a voice of questioning, almost like the mind’s inner dialogue trying to name or understand the pain. The surreal color inversions — blue hills, green sky, create a dreamlike distortion, reflecting how distorted one’s perception becomes when overwhelmed. The boy’s repeated “Nay” shows that the typical ways we talk about pain or fear don’t quite capture what he’s feeling.

Stanza 3

“The moment when the hills are green and the sky blue? asked the wind.

‘Nay’ – few have never dreamt of.

The moment of blood soothing through the rugged skin, and that soothe in peace? asked the wind.

‘Nay’ – few dream of it often.”

This part plays with inversion again: now the world is “normal” — green hills, blue sky, but still the answer is no. That normalcy isn’t what’s being sought or lost. The next image, blood soothing the skin is visceral. It suggests self-harm, but described with tenderness, almost as a release. The wind keeps guessing, but never quite lands on the truth. The boy knows what it is, but language fails to express it directly.

Stanza 4

“The moment when we are croesus, and it shines like the sun? asked the wind.

‘Nay’ – few do not want it.

The moment when the sun’s golden beam vanishes, and cloud of darkness takes its place? asked the wind.”

Now the wind offers wealth (Croesus) and joy — sunlight, radiance, as possibilities. But again, the boy dismisses these. They’re not what it is. The “cloud of darkness” is closer, closer to depression or despair, but even then, it’s not just sadness. The poem is circling around something deeper than loss or hopelessness. It’s about complete emotional void. Not just absence of joy, but absence of meaning.

Stanza 5

“‘Nay’ – it is the moment when all but life is lost, when a mother’s warmth, a father’s love, and even God’s grace fade, leaving only memories that fail to quench the heart’s thirst for love and care. When the mind is seized by 'zrael and tightened by a noose.”

This stanza finally defines it, not death itself, but the experience that leads to it. When everything that gives life meaning — family, divine presence, love, is gone or feels gone. The heart remembers love, but memory isn’t enough. ‘Zrael (the angel of death) enters here not just as myth but as metaphor for surrender. The noose isn't just physical, it’s a symbol of constriction, inevitability, closure.

Stanza 6

“The boy closed the windows,

Shutting out the wind.

He tightened the knot and stepped forward.

‘Sorry,’ he gasped”

I tried to make the final stanza , as physical as possible.However, there are symbolic statements as well. Closing the windows means cutting off the dialogue with the wind, silencing even the questioning. There’s resolve now. No more debate. The word “Sorry” is devastating. It says everything, remorse, resignation, farewell, but also speaks to how those who take this step often feel like a burden, even when they're the ones in pain.